An old one... to get me started.

I don’t know if I told you
I don’t know if you noticed
Did I happen to mention?
I’m an alcoholic
Did you happen to notice?

The liquor tastes thicker
The smoke seeps quicker
Into me by night
My eyes glaze over
My fingers move slower
I dance in the moonlight

I don’t know if I told you
I don’t know if you noticed
Did I happen to mention?
I’m an alcoholic
Did you happen to notice?

Rain on my face
Crowds made of lace
And I lose my sight

I slip into another world
Of feathers and whispers swirled
Carrying me, I no longer fight
Letting it go
Surrender it slow
Take me deep night

I don’t know if I told you
I don’t know if you noticed
Did I happen to mention?
I’m an alcoholic
Did you happen to notice?
Did anyone notice?

Letting it go
Surrender it slow
Take me deep night

Did you happen to notice?

Advice to a friend

That's a good idea about giving me the cell phone. I think you're right about him not taking action and really I don't think threats of you not being there anymore are going to help him make a decision or take action finally. Hopefully the therapist will help him sort things out over the next couple of months and then maybe down the line he'll be ready for a relationship with you. I wish I could say I thought he was ready now, but he's just not. That sucks about the picture being back up. Sever the ties on Tuesday and don't look back till he comes to you! Know what I mean??? And call me when you feel like calling him or go out and have some fun. Make out with random guys. Oh, you know what helped me when I was pining away for this guy who was throwing a bone here and there but was totally sending me all kinds of mixed messages and I was having a really hard time letting go? Every time I thought of him, of why he hadn't asked me out for the weekend or why he called but then didn't ask me out, or why this or that… I just said to myself "I don't care." I don't care I don't care I don't care. And I know that seems silly and the truth is that I did care but I got really good at stopping myself from obsessing by using that one line and eventually I didn't care. I saw him and he tried to flirt and I walked away laughing thinking, "and to think I once cared! Hmph!"

Australians & Beer Go Good Together

I'm going out tonight! I haven't been out in ages, not out-out. And with all the stress from moving and fits from my little one and general moods and grumpiness at our new abode, I think a night out is just what I need. My friend got some tix to a show on Indie 103.1, Passport Approved, that features international bands and musicians. Tonight's show is gonna be featuring some Australian peeps...http://www.alexlloyd.com/ & http://www.myspace.com/jamescarrington & http://www.jakecoco.com/ Very cool. I even think I will partake in some libations, a beer or two perhaps. I haven't had any alcohol in what seems like ages because of my frequent, almost everyday migraines. But a good beer and good music .... mmm-mm!